What it feels like to be narcissistic

Part of an ongoing series about life with complex post-traumatic stress disorder

It feels…angry, volatile, alone. Cold, afraid, scared when you reach farther down. Sometimes, commanding. Sometimes, cruel, but righteous. Young, immature, disproportionate. Lofty. Irrational. Anxiety crops up like a tidal wave and it feels impossible to take responsibility for it yourself, so you lash out at everyone else. You’ll do anything to keep from being reminded how afraid you are that others control your happiness and sense…